let me voice out here!!

So pathetic

i feel like doing too much

sick of being, the only caring, working out automatically without mentioning....

there is not much appreciates received

Somehow, i have to admit that why am i being such generous all the while

I had succeed by seeking the attraction, it has not last any longer

Slowly, i have become a tool, use me when needs me. when i face problem, no cares ...everyone's gone~~

Hope that i will be treated differently after all my hard works done, such idiot!!

1st day knowing them?! they will only care what they use to care.

They are my part of souls, respects, tolerance, my follower - i finally realized, i'm acting so foolish, putting too much efforts just to show my existence.....

I can hold with it seriously, for months~ years~

if these crappy incidents did not happen from the past few days~it could be even longer

Adults to the youngest,

they have clearly show in front of me even tells, my care was an EXTRA.

i still remember these bitchy talks "I didn't ask u to be like that!!, you yourself care too much!!!, stop giving annoying advises!!" these really hurt me......

i am the only one who follow whatever instructions or so call *rules* set??

When you're great : this is what you have to behave like, ADULT!

but actually i have start hanging this behaviour since i was 13. Since the day my brother left to another state....since the day you'll ask me to take care of my sister...since the day i start working.

I'm not born to be independence, i have to be..trained to be...-understandable; somehow

i can be weak sometimes.

I have tried so hard to not letting myself make any mistake, not letting you'll to worry but STILL there is thing to blame....their fault nag me, why ar?!

Blame ! Blame! Blame!...can someone stands out for me?

I don't expect more but at least EQUAL