FALLING IN LOVE with someone ~~easy but Tough mission

-Starbucks day-
I noticed there was a girl. She sat right behind me with her younger sister.
I heard she was talking with her bf through phone. and she was totally freaking me out.
I admire...No no!! is jealous with her behaviour, the way she talked to her bf. So straight forward. no worries and laugh out terribly.
I suddenly felt so upset at that moment, she was just like the 'old' ME last time. Carefree~
Ever since my college life starts
It has been quite some time.....
Think before u do, speak, act.....
Care a lot, have to stay aware of people around u, person that u speak to and etc.
I can feel that my brain is moving every second before and during talking now. Compare to last time, less worries less pathetic. I enjoyed every moment!!
I dislike the current 'ME'~sound selfish to someone i know.
But i fully agree with this phrase "we have to love ourselves first before loving other ppl!!!"
If i happy, i believe that friends surround us will got affected by this happiness too.
Well, not easy to change back to the original side....Thing has changed without your controlling.