Raymond ARh...

Raymond lam's concert ticket SOLD OUT??!!
CAnnot beeeeeee....
That IS CRAZY!! YeeEeeee :C


ANyone selling?haha...i need minimum 4 tickets!!!~ LOLX

。。。。 要努力才能成功
。。。。 要努力心想事成
。。。。 要努力就可求仁得仁
不努力就什么都不能。。:(

Treat this as a 'motivation' for myself lo~haha
I post this up for everyone who facing final soon~
Cheer up, be a positive thinker~
You will receive equalize pay back from the hard works you have put on.

Working for these coming weekends ( SAT&SUN)
SPM soon, feel pressurize
worries + lack of sleep...Zzzzz

I always wish to switch off the light and get to the bed earlier
hang out without eye bags
go for exercises
but then...
the person i sharing room with , preparing for spm laaa~!!

What makes her nervous that much?
compare to my century, we were much relax la rite!! kakakaa....

Btw, watched time traveler's wife + Jennifer's body+ 2012
2012 -touched me! and i realized time shouldn't be wasted and if its really happens in the year 2012, we shall immediately try up on something that we have never been through.
Stop lagging behind with useless things and people.

Jennifer's body and Time traveler's wife- i will rate them as 7/10.
Not as bad as the comments i heard from.
Got the storyline but not well-structured
Climax part too short or not deep into enough?

People, Ppl, PPL..Outside there
Final SOON~~

*Wish you guys ALL THE BEST!!!! Mmmmmuackszsss

Starbucks

i saw him (the first guy i fall to) last few days. At the usual place i go always. haha

Not that hyper but still shy to face him.

But i still pretend like what i use to be= COOL. haha

He was chitchatting with one of my secondary mate...she has changes a lot too. (don't think they are couple) LOLX

Last time used to think that:' i might have chance!" he liked me before ( STANDARD 2) haha, and since we were in the same tuition-, we did talk to each other during class, Eh... got electric shot Oo, I'm the only one who got "shocked"!! hoHoho....

End up he goes for my best friend :( No doubt, she is better. -behaviour and looks-.

I am not so friendly last time, and shy to face guys especially to someone i like..

Now also la..haha. I didn't change much. So leh, if i treat some of you very close and nice mean i'm not into you oo..Dont misunderstood. wakakaka :p

Can i really talk to him next time if met him again? cheh... I STILL shy la aduh~~ hahahaha

我总是在寻找直得信任，可以倾谈的男性朋友。
但我忽略了，同时间这些朋友也是不敢担当，更不敢为友人抱不平或挡下困难。
我很想被保护, 我装坚强吧了。
所以我对追求者第一要求就是面对面表白( 不是在广众啦!! )

Okay
WHY am i mention this suddenly? i feel betrayed when someone snake out and i face everything Myself~
It began from a small incident.
You, the one who reminded me about the joke and i started to work out what we had plan previously.
End up left me alone doing. What for reminding me the plan then? ( i did not get mad with this actually, she neither.)

But due to this joke she started mentioning about some stuffs, i know why she did so just because i fooled her yet you, the one who snake out still dare to put in another words to mention about the things i MIND a lot!! You read my latest post in blog and you should seriously know how i feel right, not like i did not share with you or apologised right!! The latest incident already hurt me badly. I'm trying to let it off but could you stop adding salt on it or recall them back? I was force to be cheerful in front of you guys yet my heart was dripping tears.

身边已寥寥无几，最经还一连窜发生那么多事,
才真真惊觉身边的一切, 原来只是信任是不够的.

FALLING IN LOVE with someone ~~easy but Tough mission

-Starbucks day-
I noticed there was a girl. She sat right behind me with her younger sister.
I heard she was talking with her bf through phone. and she was totally freaking me out.
I admire...No no!! is jealous with her behaviour, the way she talked to her bf. So straight forward. no worries and laugh out terribly.
I suddenly felt so upset at that moment, she was just like the 'old' ME last time. Carefree~
Ever since my college life starts
It has been quite some time.....
Think before u do, speak, act.....
Care a lot, have to stay aware of people around u, person that u speak to and etc.
I can feel that my brain is moving every second before and during talking now. Compare to last time, less worries less pathetic. I enjoyed every moment!!
I dislike the current 'ME'~sound selfish to someone i know.
But i fully agree with this phrase "we have to love ourselves first before loving other ppl!!!"
If i happy, i believe that friends surround us will got affected by this happiness too.
Well, not easy to change back to the original side....Thing has changed without your controlling.

let me voice out here!!

So pathetic

i feel like doing too much

sick of being, the only caring, working out automatically without mentioning....

there is not much appreciates received

Somehow, i have to admit that why am i being such generous all the while

I had succeed by seeking the attraction, it has not last any longer

Slowly, i have become a tool, use me when needs me. when i face problem, no cares ...everyone's gone~~

Hope that i will be treated differently after all my hard works done, such idiot!!

1st day knowing them?! they will only care what they use to care.

They are my part of souls, respects, tolerance, my follower - i finally realized, i'm acting so foolish, putting too much efforts just to show my existence.....

I can hold with it seriously, for months~ years~

if these crappy incidents did not happen from the past few days~it could be even longer

Adults to the youngest,

they have clearly show in front of me even tells, my care was an EXTRA.

i still remember these bitchy talks "I didn't ask u to be like that!!, you yourself care too much!!!, stop giving annoying advises!!" these really hurt me......

i am the only one who follow whatever instructions or so call *rules* set??

When you're great : this is what you have to behave like, ADULT!

but actually i have start hanging this behaviour since i was 13. Since the day my brother left to another state....since the day you'll ask me to take care of my sister...since the day i start working.

I'm not born to be independence, i have to be..trained to be...-understandable; somehow

i can be weak sometimes.

I have tried so hard to not letting myself make any mistake, not letting you'll to worry but STILL there is thing to blame....their fault nag me, why ar?!

Blame ! Blame! Blame!...can someone stands out for me?

I don't expect more but at least EQUAL

new baby, new haircut!!

____________________________________________________________________

想法

当一个爱你的人为你出头 即正常又平凡
当一个已不属于你的人 你想要他为你出头 既奇怪又离奇

你不可不否认 这一定存有不止友谊吧了的感情 既矛盾又迷惘
那个人也不该责怪那平凡人，这代表他爱的奉献， 正如我所说是正常地
人往往就是这洋，
做了多余的事，就如画蛇添竹般，相反地，这却反映了另一回事。
怒气遮盖全部， 包括思考。

好话应该说的，别因为一些外人而伤感情，
如果彼此还是在意对方
就该好好维护
毕竟经历了那么多
也该放开~学习体谅吧！！！

my CAR

my car ~~
From what i heard, the car is already out since monday, and parked outside their company
But due to the 'effectiveness' of the gov workship, their festival ma...not enough strength maybe.haha
approval letter for this car still not out yet
Without that the car cannot drive on road..
Promised monday will arrive wan mah~~~, aish!!
My plan ruined out la....
Probably need to wait for another week and another amount of $$ need to spend for cab to college.*rush again* bishBAshBooooo

I love MALAYSIA~~31/8 National Day!!!

my apologies is for wat i did say before.

I shouldn't argued with you when i was still blur with the situation.
finally recalled back my memories.....
i have something to say actually...

BUT,
i scared that happens again
although i don't really like to keep inside...

I will say,
there is some misunderstanding between us,
Hopefully u will feel better today.

2 years

"If wait for ur return from aussie, will u still consider?"
hahaaa...
Can be NO, or Yes.
There is no any exact answer for that...

2 years...
is a long duration to everyone...
so this agreement doesn't exist.
i don't like to be tied up, and i hope you wont' be tied up with this too!!
And, that kind of waiting....loneliness and taste of bitterness------should be lo. HOhoho

its suffering man...so dont ever think about it.
YET enjoy ur life~~ go for your own life and do watever u want!!!!
2 years later only think about it la if still like that person......haha :)

FOR now....
my final decision will be......SINGLE 1st!!

BE hope-ful always

Acca result released this afternoon
i already knew what i would get
But there was a 'woman' accompany me for whole day.
WHY female?? zZzz..
Trying to be optimism.
Today, supposingly a sad day to me.
But after i told her, she still willing to treat me a meal
She NEVER tell liess ESPECIALLY to MOON~~~~hahaha
After the K-ing session, i drive my mum to night market get ingrediants for dinner
well, it was raining that time. I ran down to buy those stuff and let my mum stay inside car.
ALmost all wet, and my head still spinning heavily now due to the acid rain effects!!
After the market trip, i went to photostating for my textbook after a month of my course started. Hahaa
Who knows, my stupid heels torn! SO frustrating with the kik *KOK* kik *KOK* sounds.
Everyone was looking when i passed by them...AIsh!!
I went to starbuck and order a tall size of vanilla steaming milk which recommended.
ANd NOW....
the happy things happened!!
They gave me a large size to replace the tall size glass....
GOOD or bad?
The bad part - i will be suffering in my coming dinner coz full of milk!
I can eat less- which is good too~~can diet ma~~
haha...:P

**Whenever there is a bad incidents happens, there will be a good ones arrive after that.....:)

my apologies--

i will let u know soon...
as i said before..end of this month!
If u really urge for the answer right now..,it will be "NO"
Anyway, dont waste money on that la....
if u do it without my permit, then different...haha
but u have asked....
my parents will nag and ask alot...Zzzz, u know la-pretty *annoying* sometimes, hehe!!
and im not angry, don worries....
I just ,I am just afraid to answer. * take a deep breathe* PHEWwww
Tell u here,indirectly but can fully express out how i feel to UR request. HAHA
Chat again later ~~

i see

she is at the same tutorial group with me....
she is not what i expected...
she likes day dreaming too....
Another who care about physical appearance (image) alot like me!!!
We are sama sama....
NO no...except body shape...HAizz= DIET till when!!?
Nvr give up,never give up; give up = gain fatss
OHyea...she has the SMART look...which i think i dont have but pretend to have 1!!...
wakakkaa :p

**I nak cut hair la...or GO for Rebonding?? any ideas frenz.....?

lack of happiness~dont read it if u can't take it...

我想我也应该 重回 迈向我自己的生活了！！
终于知道为什么我怕，不敢
我怕你们会麻烦， 你们会不耐烦，总有一天会离开
我铁定，如过在我认真的对待，你们会比现在更麻烦
我自己可以很独立，
我宁愿一个人，也不想看到你们离开.
不是我不珍惜,我不重视-------------
因为当我非常认真的看待，我会变得超粘，不再独立
你们就不只得体谅我，还得随时帮我应付家人。
当然，如果你们自己也不能搞定自己或怕麻烦~~就算吧！！

我觉得很坏，每次麻烦到人，没答应就别烦人吗~
但我又不会 怎么办？？ 我笨 怎么办？? 我少朋友 怎么办??
没咯, 问一两次, 再问就没意思吧!?
我很敏感, 对怨言, 利用的语气, 不耐烦的口吻........等等
都说我敏感咯,
凭第一感觉就写了这张垃圾文章
其实之前想了很多开心的,笨笨的, 可爱的, 总之目的是带欢乐给大家的
每次到要写的时候就想不起来, (因为过了一短时间,灵感飘走了)
下回一定要抄下, 不然一想到就快快update...
这次就不好意思哦.......又来悲哀~~~~
忍耐 忍耐 ~~

Eleh..forget about it

Reached limits
i know what i am working out now
thinking differently
what i do dissimilar with what you think
An equation form = what you deserved is what you paid
sounds realistic?
safer + fare
And thats the way of my living style
You may start analysing them
But follow my measurement hopefully, not Yours
And i definitely have done more than that....an 'A'???
I wonder what else more i could do to fulfil anyone
Deep inside my heart will be 'I couldnt afford to lose more
OR pour out EVERTHING meaninglessly......!'

Today,
one of my course mate came for "show".
almost half-naked..cover with pink-thin layered + tight top ( show half of her boobs) and mini shorts.
If i am a guy, my eyes will OR CAN only focus on her!! nose bleed if *weak* guy sees :p
GOOD body she has, nice shape....worth it. LOLx

Unfortunately, come for an hour lecture, and show up herself after everyone entered. what is her purpose?? Co-incidence? .....other girls supposingly have the similar thinking when in such situation.....

So, stop complaining about my deep "V", just an ordinary T-shirt with V collar la. Personally think that V suits me more than O, there is no"show"off issue inside. I have nothing to show either.
skirt or mini types, no longer a problem...GO AHEAD
earth is turning everyday, things change every seconds, .....HAhaaa! who knows one day, GUY will be hanging around with skirt or inner garment to shape up their bodies?? LOLX.....

"插曲"比赛

开场竞争激烈
一号参赛者 至 五号参赛者 状态大勇
我个人比较看好一号和三号， 尤其三号， 实力不可看小
它们毛色非常亮丽，从初赛到现在都紧守头衔
在场的欢呼声一般，热闹程度不比历年

二号选手首先被淘态，接着就是四号
二号的失败 ，因为它缺伐光芒，固然它的实力是比四号来的好，但四号选手靠着它的不虚不老
战胜二号，但老天爷是公平的！！！最后它也不敌而落败。。。。

剩下一，三，五号
畜势待发。。。
接下来，大会请来了一位经验老道大师来考练它们
那位大师原来患了重病
却因骑虎难下被逼上场.
首先请来一号选手上前。。
在过程中， 大师看似非常辛苦，力道不促, 最终
大师在逼与无奈下, 离开.......

大会 从大师对它们的考练模式 ，变成了参赛者互相切磋
一号选手因这突如其来的状况
担心到落泪，
三号和五号也抖了起来。。
一切出乎意料之外的刺激
在这, 五号选手最终也宣告落败, 光荣隐退

我的眼光满好的吗!!!
一号与三号顺利爬到争夺冠军位置
本以为会斗得难分难解
可能就因为一号曾经落泪, 影响了它的演出
冠军轻而易举就落在三号选手的手中....
本以为能一睹三号选手展示它的胜利之曲才离开
奈何, 天意弄人...

我得提早离场, 还是用跑的呢~~~~~大汗蹋小汗
哈哈哈哈

终于写完.......END>.<

i would like to know...

if u dont want to do so,
don promise to do so...
if u really forget about it,
make sure u will do it another day..
really dislike ppl like that,
and it happens to know that u're not busy with works and activities like others....
i pretend not to find out, but its hardly cover emotional me
u are nothing to me beside a fren of mine...
look at u, is like facing a mirror to myself...
u are like what u had scolded me last time...
complained a lot about my attitudes but current you not much differ
think carefully, what u had said...
and what u had done these days...
you're worsen than me..worsen than a girl.
i can tell u that i have changed a lot, this is wat i promised to do so
After i had changed, i see a familiar shadow of mine from you
knowing u make me change and understand myself more..
which i think is good..
bad as in i change myself too much for ur words?!
end up, don't even get any appreciation.....
i wonder, sincerely wonder...... do U realised about it?
From begining till now, we're only friends ...i mention all the while
don't make it like we were broke up or what pls...
normal friendship suits u more...females are emotional animal, dont u think so? u have to learn to manage ur emoness at the same time your gf's one.
i rarely show up my emotional face to ppl, doesnt mean i dont have...I AM very emotional...( agree, fren?? ) IF not i wont be blogging here...haha
But i absolutely think that this"tight"frenship situation can be solved, or slightly change.
Depend on you....

when it comes

preparing my mood for the day to come...
12 hours to go...
non= excitement
2 face the environment, ppl, location.....
currently,
just feel lazy to drive
need volunteer = pick, drop, send, deliver, hug, =.+ DREAM ON~
time to shut OFF

dont ask me -.-

arh...
meaningless life..
dont ask me why...
feel tat minutes ago...

Actually
i have plenty of plans before coll reopen..
difficult laa...
when can only starts?

i wonder ...i wonder.....
wait ..wait....

thanks

Good news..
Finally received a gift from the someone who owed me for ..............5 months!!! one..two...three...zZzzz *.* yeah ~~5 months!!
It might be a common colour, dull look, lack of design but i like it a lot....
And it come before my college starts, Great!!!...
I can hang around with it, and dump all my books in, Hahaaa...
Enter coffee shop without carrying books on hand....with a bag is much more flexible and fashionable?
haha..well...
You might think that :" a bag only wat, i have plenty of it laaa...'
TO a person like me, doesn't own a bag at alll..(grabbed my sister's bag all the while since the 1st year of my college life.) paiseh!~?
Need a celebration right? LET's go PARTY...
finally got a bag that chosen and ( half- paid) by myself- WEI u still owe me money $$$..KEKEkeke... Feel really satisfied....
Actually there is a bag that bought by another of my fren, when the time i got it..
there were already few scratches on it and there were 2 blue-black patches...he probably got cheated by net seller.Not his fault thou~
No doubted that the bag he gave was what i wanted before....Really appreciated!!
Got the heart can de....still remember to buy me after such a long promise.
谢谢。。goh meh-goh meh- KANasai :P

i will do it then....

have been thinking on this, these days.
i should take up the 1st move,
no point of waiting actually, i knew it....
i cannot stand the anger or hiding from someone such long...
From the beginning till the ends, i know what im doing. and treat everyone the same.
it makes me heartbreak..haha. nOla, doesnt feel good.
I think i am silly nyway, but its better in this way....
shouldnt bother upon any dignity...Just go for it
Not first time thou....and if u're not doing it, who u can rely on...
The matter now is ... avoiding each other doesn't helps, not my style too-
problem will still remain there..
wat's the point then?!
Someone might thinks that it works by avoiding, avoiding unequal to forgetting but mistakenly thinks that time can cure everything. ITs true, but not cure from the bottom of heart. Friendship yet to be done after this.
OKAY, Im definitely not that avoiding kind.....abit guyish OH? haha....
Cause this is really irrational. WE will feel bad and embarrass when facing each other next time.
i would prefer a fren more than an enemy.
Therefore, i have decided to do my own path...
IF result turns out differently or the other side remain that way, LET it be
at least i know i had did something to remedy for that...no guilt to face!!

billy the goat

HE is a man....:X:X:X GREAT news- he just corrected me, not MAN is still ZAI!!!
he likes basketball...( just noticed after the quiz from facebook) haha
frisbee take up all his time...* any gurl who interest on him, either take part in frisbee - he will teach you face to face WAN horr....
IF u are not sporting or HATE frisbee like me, just GIVE UP ba* :x
Caring gei...SOMETIMES, funny gei....sometimes,wood LO PASSIVE instead (mafan la keep change my wording)...MOSt of the time.
OVerall, still a good guy~~ wood is meant to be not * flower heart* ba? I THINK SO.......zZzzZz, abit too over!! hahahaha.....*zipped*


He dAMn fake lo.." chui sui ngmm mat chui "- liar~..make me happy sial ( few minutes ago)
NOW.. i am down, mood deeply affected at this moment...
Before that i only planned to type out the bright side of him, who knows...he is not worth for my praise~~ *mad! mad!*
HE is stingy goat somehow....ACcountant's personality, what to do....I ALso donno. HAHaaa
Oklah, i understand why, but not going to type out here..haha, Feel free can ask me GURLS.
Stay happy alwiz ya, stay away from emoNESS. TRY to pls....

no take it serious

when i first heard about this, kind of shocked and surprised ~ " abit an shuang " la...HAhahaa
He's a very caring fren. At least friendly enough to everyone.
The way he sees me is so different, i should realised earlier. Or i'm just too busy with others last time.
TAt day, he was the only one watching me leave and his eye sight left after i got into the car then drive off ..AIya...just so gentleman la.
BUT kinda dangerous lo, no street light...everyone should take care of gurls when in such situation. Forget about it la...getting lesser and lesser la, lesser hope better.HAHaa..

OKay, back to the topic...
HE is a good boy and...... tooo good u know and shy boy.haha
I like good boy..wakaka~~ SO those who think that he or SHE is qualify for that...just gimme a cALL. I WAIT YOU YA!! :D 012903XXXX.

good experience

memorable day~
but, its really make me feel that i'm actually not useless LO, HOhoho..
Better than staying at home doing nothing rite :)
im really not so into online games, so BORing la...lvling lvling lvling~~LOLS > not patient enough ^^
OR coz of lonely? wakaka...none of them willing to spend some time to help me level up...=.= [complaining]JOEY~~ huh~huh!! hehehe :>

first time, nervous abit...Nearly late--- Sound so right to me :x thats me ma!?!!~
luckily uncle, auntie, girlfren ,boyfren there verRrrry nice...not bored la at least~~for the 1st hour, LOLx

Actually i only have to walk around, answer questions which i donno and pretend concentrate and serious to my work.EAsy sial~ only for part time la.....not much pay but can spend my time usefully~ HAhaaa....
I will still go for it when i have any extra time and day since not so stressful...lols

yesterday very fun thou, i PLAYed basketball leh~~and successfully shoot in twice!! Others sau pei la, hahahhaa...
MIss voonsia so active, totally different with the one give lecture to us~~ bUT shooting still chaR jor didiiii~~ NEed more train, --- billy GO!! Showoff time!!!
AH wait, ur leg bengkak again harh....right leg bengkak jor now left leg, WHEN bengkak both at the same time???...hehehe
DOnt move la, later neeed me to carry. ..Lie down PLS!!! KOKwai serve u for ur entire life~~ cannot see also can EAT^^

人是要进步的~~ i will continue upgrade myself to become more knowledgeable...YEah~~
This spirit can hold for how long leh??....haha
i will la.....TRY :s

给你的一番话

在一个绝对坦然的心情下写的：

想起过往的关系
变得现在僵硬的-有点冰冷
为什么要弄成这种地步呢？？
我们本来不就好好的吗， 为甚么要在意那么一点小事，
小到为了一个子而感到被忽略
不然就突然闹情绪
你就不能开开心心过每一天吗？就不能把一切抛开吗？

其实在认识你几个星期
我就从你朋友们口中得知你的性格
那时，我还对你辽解不深，也没把它放在心上。

直到那件事发生，介心就萌生了，当时我也没察觉
当时你用了“这是你和家人的沟通方式，与我好像不太通吧 ！！“更何况当时我和你还不熟。我只知道平时的你大声都不会，回想起我也怕了。

每当要做些什么都变得小心奕奕， 有很多事都不敢表明。
久尔久之， 我把你的不是告诉了你周边的朋友
1- 我承认是为了渲泄
2- 我本也希望用他们的嘴转告给你听
但没想道会变成另一回事，我根本没想到！！

事情过了一段时间，慢慢开始淡忘
直到有一天你告诉我，你还是很在意，我就知道你根本就没有你自己所讲的那么善忘，
只不过是你朋友所说的“逃逼” 。
那时候起， 每当你黑脸， 我就会连想到它。

为了表示我对你的歉意
其实我已把你对我的不满嗜好
例如 电话不离手--------> 现在你就投诉我没第一时间回和接你
非常主意者---------> 常常问过你意见, 你还是没什么回应
在你表达时不认真 -------> 你在说话时我都不会说话了, 我怕听不到.

都尽量改掉。但你都没察觉到吧.

做了种种， 我已经尽力了，情况反尔 更不坎。
在这种情况下，我也不太敢找你了。
你从来不问为什么我会这样，
就一厢情愿以为我是故意不理你。
其实我是怕， 怕了你， 怕自己做多错多。

我不是利用你，但我记得你说过有什么困难可以向你求救
没想到。。。。。又在你心中变了另一回事
那件事后，我不知道你心理究竟有多少东西是介意的, 我很怕....讲话都要想过才能说.
当我累时,话也自然少了.

想到着, 我每天都向朋友抱怨, 他们都知道我很在意你
口里没说, 我自己也知道, 我也觉得我烦着他们.
但他们还是会叫我放开点.

我一直把你当成我好朋友，一尔再把你当知己
我也不能一直只有我在变
但你的冷言冷语，最近的态度，
我连陌生人都不如
回想起你朋友的一番话，你真的把每个曾经关心和亲密的朋友都给伤害过，从不站在我们的立场，关心我们。

The day at Genting

Got up pretty early, reached there sharp 9 am. But the bus still left in front of us.

There are more than 9 ppl came late like us, AND i was the 1st late comers therefore they had already reserved a seat for me..hehe~~

mIst~~i like this weather!!! syok~~



ONly 2 teenagers in bus, others were uncle and auntie, going CAsino "poK " sui !!!!!! The bus was full of AH gong ah po~~~*scream*

Our 1st game

Second~

Last game : p lazy to queue up

Cable 88

3 month or + +

i have feeling that he wont be changing his mind for colour and everything.
which mean we only have to wait for that length of time.
when it comes, i probably leaving or prepare to leave.

I have tried to convince, beg, go through all kind of method......everyone relying on me~~Arghh!!!
Frankly speaking, i'm the 1 who dare to go for him, give idea, convince and...even argue with him.
Maybe , at this moment..this age...this time, i still dare to do it, and if reasonably, i don't think there is anything we cannot fulfill.
Instead, if the person you talk to is seriously stubborn, and tradition thinking such as, think of himself more than others -"i like this colour, they might like it too. OR actually the colour they want, i do prefer BUT i still prefer the one i picked !'' SO this might not work. hahaahaaaa

whY laugh? course i'm facing that kind of person now. The one i wanna convince have the personality stated above there. Tradition thinking...he is the goddess of our family, LOLX
He decides for everythng even though he know nothing about that thing.
Well, there are item h,i,x, y and z ..

1st-he will ask us to give opinion, and choose either one.
2nd-we picked item x, y and z, let him make the final decision.
3rd- but actually, he wants item h and i. so we only allow to pick either item h or i which none of them is our will
4th- finally, he decide to take I.

I am trying to convince him to pick different item which all of us want it.***
Already started doing it for the past few days, will continue but the flame is decreasing.
Should plan for my outing now......

cheap sense.

yesterday, my dad scolded my brother due to his rudeness during dinner and he did mention something about me.
I was pretty curious on it, and tried to ask them on spot. but my mum stopped me with her *signal*

Yea, finally get to ask her just now. My brother got mad when my mum comment on his gfrens, and my mum personally thinking that his g-frens is fairly too *Cheap*, sleep with my brohter eventhough they are not in relationship.

I emphasised "CHEAP" cause my brother used that to describe me infront of my parents. He said im just as cheap as his g-frens or even cheaper.
Well, i dont really get bother nyway....to my brother onlY? OR

May be I DO THINK SO
I AM cheap, in different way!!

BUrsted out in uncontrallable.......

where all of this emotion coming from!! I have lose control over it.
It appears easily whenever i feel like expressing myself.
Hoping someone to tell me it is going to be alright, everything is going to be fine.
Yaa...hoping, hoping there is someone to share with..i feel helpless and so alone right now!
There is no one i can share with when come to this. It happen too often!!
i couldn't walk away like others, i just don't know how to walk off and learn to leave aside.

movie PLAN

NIght at the Museum~~

17 Again

NEED pLAN~~~quick!!!

will not satisfy~

美的东西
真的难以抗拒
虽然你不认识它
但你会有种强烈的占欲感

在你很想拥有它的同时它却不屑你的拥有
喜好是个人化 就像人一样，
你喜欢他，他就不喜欢你。
总而言之，很难找到互相喜欢的同伴。找到的人要好好珍惜O!

study la...

EXAM soon ...ASssignment due next weekkk.
No planning, no schedule, f5 still NEgative knowledgeee!! dying 'enuff ENUFF'...
SLap MYSELF..
CAUSE of U,eu,iu,you and Yew la.

Help me for my F5 wei~~ ANYONE????
my LAW assignmentttt...lack of linkage in between wei...CASES le?STILL wait,WAIt = suicide.
LOOKing for "Hands", any hand? fingers at least la +_= frens wor~~LOLX
.....NO PLAGIARISM!! NO pLAGIARISM!! DOnt tRY to think of THAT~

IAM DEAD@ fast mode.com

苦恼

最进有点纳闷
getting lazy to go around with new frens. everytime have to start with the same topic, entertaining, i prefer going with a group ppl instead 1 on 1.
These days hanging out with usual frens, problem still occured. tiring+tiring.

DO NOT know why am i wasting time on those useless arguement. always the same and the only person i nug on.haha..pretty exhausted yet i still doing it.
I admit that he is different but not my special ones. We can get close easily,somehow,thats it,no any further.Perhaps,we only can shares happiness.Part of the reason will be his emotional attitude, i would rather talk nonsense infront of him, to make him laugh rather than seeing him hanging with his emo face.He wont be able to cheer someone's up, infact...he can be emo if u happen to turn sad.Maybe he feel himself useless or mind thinking sumthing else.haha. I didnt blame him for that since knowing him for so long de.He had already doing his best.
I would rather stay happy and continue be the happy ones.HAHA >.<

However,i can easily got influenced by the way ppl treat me la.
There was an incident happened last 2 weeks, i went out dinner with my parents.I saw one of my old fren whom sitting opposite my table.So i smsed him to informed him that i was there as well.Who knows, he didnt reply.even i told him my name.And,both of us had lost contact for 2 years, cannot count as buddy la but i still felt upset till the next day

Glad to become forgetful~~~~( not in studies)
HAHA...
I would like to apologise to ppl i comment before.I really mean it.As in that's my thinking and the view of I to u but it might consider as backstab to u guys la course when there is fren ask for my opinion about another person,i will just splitted out my words without thinking twice,no matter good or bad.I will tell out watever i know on this fren.end up it turn up become backstabbing.haha.And the worse thing is, i dont even remember wat i had said afterall if u ask me another day.!!:BSo far, i dont remember who asked me and who i comment la.LOLX.

I hope can receive some comments from those who read this blog :)about the backstabbing.

highly recommend- HURry hurry

fei jor him la ( from pict )

why is this guy so confidence to himself ar?
he said he can see through me wor...
and he can assure me that i will accept him soon...
Wth!!....obviously not my type la.
first fren that make me say *NO* at least 5 times a day.Getting annoyed!!
I brought him to peppercorn,he complaint many things;
such as, auntie walk around serve customers ( he felt annoying with that) which i think she is just being friendly to everyone.
Next, complaint about the food......
Aish, donno how to click with him la...feel like treating him more frenly but
he is just too over-confident.
ANyway, he treat me seriously daMn good la......but still.. i cant cope with his lifestyle
trying to force me turn to his type.....Cant afford ;+

a guy....

okay...let's just begin from the 1st day i entered this course
i, usually late for class...and yesh!~ i late again thou it was my 1st day.haha
anyway, i met this guy whom just got back from Perth.
He is kind of rich to me, and our lifestyle are totally different.
He has been asking me out with him these days, and i had to create sort of story to reject him.
He even bought me a gift but it really made me feel like he is using his money to get attaction from me. The gift he bought was including in the blog with the title of*THINGS I GONNA GET IT*
WEll, as i said....i only will buy it myself and not from friends for no.4 and 5. Thats not the end yet, he went to look for another gift for me after i refused to take that.....
Today, we discuss our assignment work in library together.suddenly he received a call, and he happened to talk very soft and politely.I wonder was that his girlfren? normally, i dont think we will speak till that soft and explain this and tat la to parents.
IN the other hand, he has hinted out that he likes me so it made me think that i was just sensitive.
After the discussion, he offer to drop me home, i ask him to leave anytime so that wont caught scolded. Then he told me, that wasnt his mum yet was his gf,but she is studying in australia right now. He did explain to me the reason of why he is pretending coz he doesnt want to affect his gf's studies therefore dare not break up with her. And he decided to come back to malaysia, one of the reason is to avoid seeing her.
To me, guy like him is not acceptable. He should settle the problems before tackle another girl. Personally, i will never accept this guy and no matter wat your reason is, it still shows attitude of irresponsible.

恍悟

从别人口中得知他的消息
原来他的生活已步入另一个阶段
人家就出国留学，游历各州各渊
我就终日无所事事 漫无目的
过着似有似无的生活
明知道是颓废 还若无其事甘过住每一天

他有明朗的目标 往前迈进
而我 得过且过
还以为这叫做快乐 享受生活
于他相比 才警觉真正享受生活可以是那么辽阔
我自己却比蚂蚁和尘埃还要渺小

想到这里 我也想找人帮我扛
一度心酸 一度伤感
伤感是因为读书方面 我每日愈下 兴趣一般 脑袋已没以前活跃
生活也没得比较
看见他读书与生活两样兼得
才恍然我的态度，性格和种种的一切都是错！！
希望一切还来得及，也希望心里的这把火能延续的烧 直至成功！！

uPdated

1. aroma
2. eye gel : certain brand
3. eye mask
4. cellphone
5. notebook
6. others

dudes, thx for the presents given and the best wishes received from you guys.
AND i really appreciate with what you did last night...luckily no RAIN.hahaha.got TOUCHed seriously althou i was laughing while u were progressing:X

ANd mei......nice jelly cake u bought!! no taste but sweet coz IT was from u. * yuckie* ahaha..
sweet as in, happened to save up 100 bucks from buying cake myself.wakakakka :D


MWAaaaHS~~~...

Things i gonna get it !! wait or buy....

1. Aroma (no sprayer) can use as decoration too
2. eye masks : (certain brand)
3. eye gel : ( workable for panda and sensitive nose)
4. notebook
5. cellphone
6. others



* just ignore no.4 and 5.haha.
someone asked me to do so. try to update more tomorrow. LOLx. * scratching*

happy valentine's day

14th of feb, a moment that let me feel plenty of guiltiness. u will see many couples holding each other hands and celebrate such a great day with their beloved partners.
And i will start thinking why not i simply accept a guy who chase after me and have an outing with him, especially for today. haha. I only think of that every valentine's day, let me dream on la ;X
Basically, i'm just the type of choosy,look for perfect lover all the while, enjoy romances and suprise given. Tough harh...!! I know. so easy perfect horh...no wonder u still single la!!
I probably have to stay with the same status donno how long more. gonna become LESsy lo if remain like this. HAIX. BF>.<>..<, being desparately for TOday. 0_0

Anyway, thanks for accompany with me whole afternoon. THANk You YOu yOu you and U.
i can feel the warmest,happiness while going through couple day, at least without loneliness...
Its not easy to hanging out at a place where full of couples around, hold hand, hugging each other, bunch of flowers ....etc.i do enjoy the outing and i was nearly fell asleep in cinema, haha...sorry ya!! HOpefully no disappoint u after that. We did have a great meal with worthy price and nice environment, the only problem was the waitress with sourplum face, spoiled our mood once entered in. Over all, still a happy outing, glad to celebrate together!! ;p

HAPPY VALENTINES' Everyone!!!

luckily...

Luckily i never get into accident.
I was supposed to drop AH mei home just now.
Unfortunately, my parents had used the car to somewhere else which i have no idea at all.
haha...at this moment, i found out my dad's volvo ( nvr use since i was 12 years old) just back from fixing and it's leave at outside.
Oklor, so i take that to drop mei's home so that she can catch up with her dinner and etc...bla bla bla :(
SO far, the car is just full of dirts and the front screen not so clear only..after all, it's still fine.
I had tried to go out with this car before, and my dad alwis put hope on it...hope that it can work out as other more *fashionable* cars.haha. yet, it alwiz disappoint him.
HOw disappoint? hmmm...broke down half way on the road ( highway sumtimes), engine doesnt make out the *fuu fuu* sound? haha....many bad impression. We do understand that the aged of this MR volvo is already fulfil the requirement to enter our kindly muzeum. To my dad, it is the 1st car he bought after he got his 1st * small * amount of GOLD , so it's memorable to him. We( siblings and our mum ) don't think it is precious thou,we even begged him to Sell right after i got mY car licience and wish that we can quickly own a brand new car.
Anyway, after i dropped her. i immediately drive home without stopping...in case any past scene happened again. i would like to scold the driver infront of me...how could she break down suddenly, and i nearly knocked on her car... there was only 2-3 centimetres gap. Who knows if my car break sot sot dei or i slow react le, that stupid expensive car have to go for butt surgery la and i have to be responsible for that!
My leg still shivering until now.Wow, nearly ...god sake!!